As you may or may not have noticed I am updating less and less and my own energy drops in maintaining a open dialogue with the public.
Since quiting my radio show I have had time to reflect and realize why they call it a young mans game. My throat is almost full enough of so much bullshit I am choking on it. It is hard to write comedy when you are depressed. It is hard to care when you are depressed. All you can do it wait it out and hopefully something will happen to motviate me out of this shitfest.
After the release of my third dvd near the end of 2010 I was starting to feel the effects of what to do next. I have released three dvds in less then six years which is a lot of material when you factor in each has over 90 minutes of standup. It is just getting harder and harder to try and one up myself so I dont feel like a hack. In the end if I did a fourth dvd other then braggin rights what is it for? Contrary to what you may think I am not a fan of bragging rights.
I am not working that much but I dont think most comics are these days as it is getting harder and harder to survive as a comedian in Canada. Also which is even tougher is when I have not worked in weeks then I have to headline a show and I am rusty big time. Most cases it takes three or four shows to shake the rust off to fire on all cylinders so when you have a two show weekend you dont even get started.
What makes it even harder is when you have a middle act that is swinging a big stick and killing with original edgy material. Last weekend I worked with nick beaton a very funny young comic. I am not saying that he took the weekend but there were times I felt like I was a fat jake lamotta. It was great to see a comic work so hard like he does but it also reminds you of your own shortcomings. I have not written much and have become bloated when it comes to my act.
Dance monkey tell them more about material that is four years old and sell it like you thought of it today…dance you fucking monkey.
When I look back at 2011, I think I will see a year of being stuck in the mud with no significant contribution to my comedy and just telling the same 40 minutes of jokes over and over. Put a fork in my ass flip me over I am done.
I have exactly three months to pull my head out of my ass and write new material for the tour I am doing across Canada with Kenny Robinson and Kathleen Mcgee.